So this, is my anon rant is you'd like.
But along with ranting, I also want to remind you that my intentions are only for the best, I honestly love you all so much, and I'm not doubting anyone here.
First of all, I was talking to gorgeous fellow anon the other day, she messaged me, and we were talking about how polyvore has changed for the worst.
Now, I've been here since November '11, I've had multiple anons, too many to even remember if I'm honest, so I've seen it change.
When I first joined, you'd put a couple of pictures on, say what you wanted then that was good enough. - baring in mind back then we didn't have tags.
People were much happier! It was an enjoying thing to be! I remember how I used to sit in class and think, "wow, I can't wait to go on polyvore tonight!" Not even kidding.
Yet now, this place is a chore.
I can guarantee if you stroll down your newsfeed you'll see at least 3 depressing template fills.
Now, as an anon I guess you're like, "well, message them and help them"
But some of you guys can be so rude if that happens. I know speaking up about something like depression can be really hard to do. But honestly, what else are you wanting from those template fills? If people give you attention, you pass it off anyway.
You see, I've battled depression ever since the age of 11. I've been through the whole lot, and I've just done a month and a week without self harm. I've even been at the sucide point.
And one thing about depression is, we tend to keep it to ourselves because if we seek help or attention, we feel.. Like we're pretty much just going to be bothering you.
(Now I just wanna say that, I'm not saying you do or don't have this mental illness, I really hope it didn't come across that way)
And I've noticed, if I ever need help and advice about something, the majority of the time I don't really know who to turn too. Who even cares & who will actually help? Lots of anons will, but theirs a majority that just can't help at all. Or, you'll message them and they'll ignore you. What is that? Yeah, they might be busy, but as an anon your role is to help, not just role play.
If I'm desperately in need of something, and the best I get is, "I'm sorry love, stay strong" that's sweet 'n all, but its not gonna help my problem now is it?
I understand, sometimes you can't help with someone's problem though.
That being said, although I'm probably coming across as a judgemental bi tch in this set, I really honestly don't mean too.
I want you all to know I'm HONESTLY here for you. I've saved a lot of people from hurting themselves and even worse. And I'm not finished yet.
You guys are my strength, so, I will repay some back to you when you need it. If I'm online, ill help you. Even if it means me staying up till 3am and having you break down in my inbox. No problem is ever too small or big. After all, once it's shared, it's halved.
And to all those posting those templates, trust me, I can relate. I've been in your position and I've felt what you're feeling. I can help you. Don't ever feel like you're bothering me, either. I'm not ashamed of my scars, why should you be either?
And don't worry, I won't give any sarky replies back. I'll hold a conversation with you, I'll pay an interest. I'll put you first, because that's how truly important you really are.
I'm not a perfect anon, I'm just me, I'm just doing what I've been doing since I first joined here. The chances are, you may've already spoke to me, I've had so many accounts.
Right now, my most current accounts I have active are;
- this one.
I have 4 accounts because that way ill be able to talk to more of you, therefore helping more people. Plus, I've noticed that people tend to prefer a certain person to another, so, if you don't like Jane levy you can talk to Miranda Kerr instead. & vice versa.
I also used to be @kendalljenner-xo, if any of you people remember that one. It's a year or so ago now though.
But yeah, I'm here solely for you guys. Please, I'm not a therapist, but I do have some good advice, hugs & tea on hand. Then also know that behind this I'm just a 14 year old girl, I don't have a psychology degree. I strongly suggest that if I can't help you after a long heart-to-heart to seek actual medical help.
I really do hope I haven't offended anyone in the process of this rant, please note that was never my intention.
I love you so, so, so, much darling. Don't you ever forget that. xxx
xx, Amelia. ♡